I've noticed something about my desire to lose weight when my fiance is home. It completely disappears! :-( It's not that he is forcing me to stuff my face with fatty and sugary foods...its the fact that he still eats that kind of food around me. I have been pretty good at holding back eating all the food he is eating but I wish he was would at ( Read more... )

I am depressed. It sucks. I'm frustrated, I keep crying and pigging out. I did a photoshoot with my best friends Ali and Derek. We did our interpretation of the swine flu aka H1N1 flu. The concept was awesome but I look absolutely terrible in the far away pic. I didn't know we were going out to shoot so I was ill prepared in my wardrobe so I look ( Read more... )

And that is being IGNORED. I absolutely hate it when I am ignored by those I consider my friends. My friend Ali...we were great on Sunday. We hung out, did pictures. Had a great time! Now, I can't even get her to associate with me. It pisses me off. If you don't want to fucking talk to me...than fucking tell me. I'll be fine with that. Ooooh does ( Read more... )

I haven't exercised in months! I feel like crap. -_- Tomorrow, I'm opening a gym membership at my college. It's only $20.00 for students so there is no excuse that I cannot go and exercise. The only worry I have is I have a very bad back due to a large chest so I got to be careful for the next couple months. Meh.

    So, I admit, I got gigundo breasts. I don't hate them yet I don't like them. They hurt my back, shoulders and neck and make me look a LOT bigger than what I am. Probably like 20 lbs of weight in just my breasts. Checked my BMI last night after I found out my weight. *hangs head in shame* and the damn thing said I am obese. wtf? I am a lot...a ( Read more... )